Tuesday, September 20, 2011

 this made me really think about what its gotta be like to be him "A story: A man fires a rifle for many years; And he goes to war. And afterward he turns the rifle in at the armoury; And he believes he's finished with the rifle. But no matter what else he might do with his hands, love a woman, build a house, change his son's diaper; His hands still remember the rifle."

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

ok that last blog was purely out of anger/emotion... i love my future husband, and we go through things just like anybody else.. but the true test in any relationship, is to be able to hold hands after each disagreement <3 it took me some time to actually grasp that phrase but i mean i feel like its so relevant to my life

Sunday, September 11, 2011


i dont know what to do, my head hurts, i cant think, i cant sleep !! i just feel like nothings going right anymore. the other day i thought i was pregnant and  in my mind i was like this is NOT the time(i had a dream about one, i woke up scared) ! i feel like my relationship is not 100 anymore since this crazy mess, i mean its not his fault or mines just reality and this thing called life.. well maybe it is our faults i ont reall know...but im just gonna get my mind focused back on the thing that i kno best... school !! maybe ill start dancing or singing or working...i need something that allows me to get away from everything and everybody..i love being alone ... i wonder if thats how im supposed to end up..all my relationships end up a mess. but it is what it is !

Monday, September 5, 2011

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.